My Respect Never Ends

I have a very high-spirited respect for my friends who managed to get up and be in a extraordinary good mood after all that you have been going through. Although there's still one person who didn't have the motivations to move on, at least most of them can make it right?

Thanks to you guys I can swim to the surface of consciousness and regain my true meaning of life of what I should be. In fact, I am now able to breath almost freely and happily for myself for the mean time. I hope things won't get worse in the future.

It's all marked down at my heart. Don't get really sad or I will tear my eyes crying for the sadness of yours. Till then. Cheers baybeyh! =)

I'm a big boy

I don't even realized myself that i recently had celebrated my 20th birthday. it was a blast though i was the only one who thought it to be that way. Well, that's not the main point. The idea here in the new post is regarding of how i ride the roller coaster of being an adult. Seriously, I still think that I'm a kid / sluggishly begging for an ice cream on a fine evening from my mother.

To add to the complications, I never ever thought that, I have the opportunities to pursue my studies abroad. It was like a miracle. I couldn't believe myself that I am able to achieve what I have achieved right now. Compared to my fellow friends, ranging from my junior high school buddies only 2 people stood out to be shining sparkly in their studies and five to fifteen perhaps are friends from senior high school that are eligible to pursue education overseas. The rest? I've heard lots of stories from the rest. I mean the ones who are not shining stars.

It was a shame to them, though at the school they were my rival in everywhere (referring to many friends back then) . However, that's how the life works on humans. Not everyone has the same opportunities to what i have now. Life is about how you live in it. It revolves around things that happened presently. Less in the past and little for the future.

I love the quote that I happened to jump into my head right now, it was taken from the reading materials a couple of weeks back. It sounded like this,

"it is important to live presently like there's no more tomorrow, because those who enjoying the present, very much has a bright future"

which means, it is very crucial that one has to be at full enthusiasm to live his/her life right now! less worrying about the past and have a slight thought for the future. On top of that, one does not need to plan many things about the future and forget about the present needs.

back to the main topic, I heard that some of my friends are criminals right now (surprise?). Not surprise enough if I say that they were wanted by police and rumour states that they now in jail. I'm not fucking believe it myself. But that's the truth. I'm sad for them. This is due to their family background. Some of them don't have a life that they don't deserve to have. It's confusing though, but what can I do?

the more I become happy, the more sad and solemn stories I happened to hear. I don't wanna post here though, but I noticed that, I should have prayed for their success in the future and don't give up no matter what happens next. It is important to hold back a moment if you fall down and collect all the motivations to project a high speed momentum for yourself. One fine strong man falls down on his knees really makes me cry. It was like a horse which lost it leg. It cannot run anymore.

Done. I cannot stand anymore. The more I share the stories, the more I feel sad and guilty. Then, I want to conclude this post with my favourite quote from my loving and caring mother,

"education meets and leaves us with fond and sad memories throughout your life, it binds us to each other and separates us later on"

it gives me strength to me every single time I have to deal with the end of year, the end of course, and the end of every long meetings with my friends. thanks mom

obsessions! [ part 1 ]

there are few things i want to possess in this entire world. simply said it's a wish list. i bet you guys have the same thing in your mind right? i mean, the idea of wishing, not my list of wish which comes after this. it may be similar to some of you, but for some, it doesn't really come with the same wavelength as mine. alright here we go.

1. guitars! + drum sets

oh yes, this is the most lovely thing if i could get one.

i want them all. all of them. none is left behind.

yup, it is always on my mind when i comes to music. guitar, guitar, guitar, guitar. . . . . . . . . . . . . . [echoing]
not to mention that, i am grateful that i have the beat for playing drums. although it is not as good as Tre Cool [Green Day's drummer] plus you can even say that i'm a bit beginner to reach to his level but, i'm pretty cool drummer too~!!

2. personal library

nice isn't it?

i dream and wish that this second list might come true when the right time comes, when money rolling in so fast in my bank account and i have lots of money to spend on. of course when you got money, no money no purchase power. the reason why i want a personal library is that, i can stock up all my books, ranging from my childhood until recent books that i would buy. it has sentimental value that no one can ever feel it other than me. there, my kids can also enjoy reading in a serene environment, a good place to study, a fine time for me to draw a great bond with my children in times of discussing school works. oh my, i hope it'll be real in the future.

3. camaro chevrolet

for you information, this is bumblebee! yeah~! i fall in love the first time when i look at this car. its so amazing! but the price now is skyrocketed with amazing rates too! thanks to the media who plays it part significantly, the movie transformers have a good ads on advertising new car models, oh my goodness. i wish i have one in the future. when the price has fallen to a reasonable and affordable price. one camaro in the future is waiting for me~!